I’ve always been a person who enjoyed little company, while ignoring social/state issues. I have never felt like a person that belongs to a country, a race or a religion. I have always considered myself as a human being of Earth and nothing more.
For 92 hours straight, So many attacks! I sat in front of my computer, with a phone in my hand. I watched everything; deceptive media, flying jets, the sound of bombs and guns, the sound of people screaming who were religiously blinded, bodies of civilians, bodies of policemen, bodies of soldiers, the panic my relatives had, the panic I had for my brother, the smiles on the politicians’ faces, the lies they told, a fake military declaration, and again the very scary and aggressive civilian crowd who marched to their deaths with no cause against a military faction. Soldiers who were very young, claiming they haven’t got a clue of what was going on; killing civilians, civilians who brutally murdered soldiers, policemen who tried to end the conflict “slowly” and “systematically”. I watched a man who made a speech during these events, like a religious celebration, saluting his crowd with a glory on his face. Everything that happened in weeks time. I watched everything and I watched every hope I had slipped from my fingers.
I’ve always been a lover of art, a lover of science, a lover of literature and a lover of nature. I always adored history, what people have accomplished, and wondered the possibilities of their future accomplishments. I have always respected the true nature and necessity for all religions and ideologies. I questioned everything I did not fully know and listened to others in order to learn and appreciate.
But what I have seen last few days, I did not understand. I did not understand -whether it was a coup or not- why and how it happened. Because I have a really hard time understanding people who benefit from war, suffering and hate. I don’t understand why the option of unity, where understanding, respect and tolerance replace hate, blood and money, is impossible and un-preferable for some people. I don’t understand the people from different races, nations, religions and genders; educated or uneducated, do not question the possibility of that they’re being used as a sword and a shield, in the path of an abused and corrupted goal.
The terrorism. I don’t know how to say. We live in 2016. We have the knowledge to teach about Black holes and found the Higgs boson (or Higgs particle), but people still kill each other BECAUSE OF THEIR RELIGION? WTF PEOPLE! IT’S 2016, NOT 1110! All of your ideas are violent. What’ll happen when you killed all the “infidels”? You’ll eventually kill each other till the whole human Race becomes Extinct. You terrorist, are disgracefully disgusting.
I know that many people from different parts of the world feel this way. I know that there are people who feel let down, devastated and humiliated by nights like these. I know that after a while, we will all soon forget about these events and continue with our small but precious lives. I know, deep down, that someday, light will prevail that enlightens generations to come.
But right now; everything burns, and there is no sparkle for me to see. 😥